I've been doing okay in class.  I think I'm going to buy a computer.  Jared doensn't like apples, but I do, but he says he will help me shop for one.  I will also be going to Egypt.  This is a good but kind of scary thing.  I will get to see the pyramids.  It's weird, the prayers and desires that God does and does not answer.  I hadn't even dared pray for this.  I worked hard, but I didn't really expect to be able to go because the space on the trips is very limited.  There are other things that are more important to me, one thing in particular.  Sometimes I wonder if God is doing this and telling me that I need to stop being so self-focused and afraid.

This guy I'm with.  Other than being thick-skulled and extremely stubborn and still kind of young, is one of the quality people that one rarely meets in life.  Most people would call me stupid for saying that the relationship is a dead-end one because he is not a Christian.  Even he says it.  People who aren't Christians can't understand, though, not very well.  It's weird and uncomfortable to believe something very firmly and not have another person have the same reliance.  He's not the type to 'become' a Christian either, just to get to me. But I'm scared that when he leaves and we become friends with a past, that I won't run into anyone else whom I can respect as much and be attracted to and who is a driven and perfectionist as I am.  I have very little faith.  Of course, most people would just ridicule me if I said stuff like this.  It seems ridiculous, actually without a religious background.

I'm going to go 'exercise'  yuck.  I hate flight physical conditioning.